{"id":19129,"date":"2026-04-17T07:00:51","date_gmt":"2026-04-17T13:00:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thovanyenson.com\/?p=19129"},"modified":"2026-04-16T08:37:58","modified_gmt":"2026-04-16T14:37:58","slug":"thang-tu-han-thang-tu-dau","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thovanyenson.com\/?p=19129","title":{"rendered":"Th\u00e1ng T\u01b0 H\u1eadn, Th\u00e1ng T\u01b0 \u0110au"},"content":{"rendered":"

(Vi\u1ebft cho m\u00ecnh, vi\u1ebft gi\u00f9m cho ng\u01b0\u1eddi)<\/em><\/p>\n

Th\u00e1ng T\u01b0 l\u1ea1i v\u1ec1.<\/p>\n

Kh\u00f4ng c\u1ea7n ai nh\u1eafc, kh\u00f4ng c\u1ea7n m\u1ed9t d\u1ea5u hi\u1ec7u r\u00f5 r\u00e0ng n\u00e0o, ch\u1ec9 c\u1ea7n nh\u1eefng d\u01b0 \u00e2m T\u1ebft bu\u1ed3n b\u00e3 n\u01a1i x\u1ee9 ng\u01b0\u1eddi b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u phai nh\u1ea1t, hay m\u1ed9t bu\u1ed5i chi\u1ec1u xu\u00e2n nh\u1ea1t n\u1eafng r\u01a1i xu\u1ed1ng s\u00e2n v\u01b0\u1eddn c\u00f4 t\u1ecbch l\u00e0 l\u00f2ng t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 ch\u00f9ng xu\u1ed1ng. Nh\u1edb v\u1ec1…<\/p>\n

C\u00f3 nh\u1eefng th\u00e1ng tr\u00f4i qua nh\u01b0 m\u1ed9t con s\u1ed1. C\u00f3 nh\u1eefng th\u00e1ng \u0111i qua nh\u01b0 m\u1ed9t th\u00f3i quen. Nh\u01b0ng c\u0169ng c\u00f3 nh\u1eefng th\u00e1ng kh\u00f4ng bao gi\u1edd r\u1eddi kh\u1ecfi \u0111\u1eddi ng\u01b0\u1eddi. \u0110\u00f3 l\u00e0 Th\u00e1ng T\u01b0. Th\u00e1ng T\u01b0, \u0111\u1ed1i v\u1edbi t\u00f4i, kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i l\u00e0 ng\u00e0y th\u00e1ng b\u00ecnh th\u01b0\u1eddng c\u1ee7a th\u1eddi gian. N\u00f3 l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t d\u1ea5u m\u1ed1c th\u1eddi gian in h\u1eb1n trong t\u00e2m kh\u1ea3m, l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t n\u1ed7i \u0111au, m\u1ed9t v\u1ebft c\u1ee9a s\u00e2u trong t\u00e2m h\u1ed3n, m\u1ed9t n\u01a1i m\u00e0 k\u00fd \u1ee9c d\u1eebng l\u1ea1i, xo\u00e1y xu\u1ed1ng, r\u1ed3i lan ra, ph\u1ee7 k\u00edn c\u1ea3 t\u00e2m can.<\/p>\n

C\u00f3 nh\u1eefng n\u1ed7i \u0111au kh\u00f4ng c\u00f3 \u00e2m thanh, kh\u00f4ng c\u00f3 ti\u1ebfng kh\u00f3c. Kh\u00f4ng th\u01b0\u1eddng c\u00f3 nh\u1eefng l\u1eddi than v\u00e3n. N\u00f3 n\u1eb1m im, r\u1ea5t s\u00e2u, r\u1ea5t l\u00e2u, nh\u01b0 m\u1ed9t m\u1ea3nh kim lo\u1ea1i nh\u1ecf g\u0103m trong da th\u1ecbt. M\u1ea3nh kim lo\u1ea1i kh\u00f4ng \u0111\u1ee7 nguy h\u1ea1i c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 ch\u1ebft ng\u01b0\u1eddi, nh\u01b0ng \u0111\u1ee7 \u0111\u1ec3 nh\u00f3i l\u00ean m\u1ed7i khi c\u1eed \u0111\u1ed9ng. V\u00e0 Th\u00e1ng T\u01b0 ch\u00ednh l\u00e0 l\u00fac m\u1ea3nh kim lo\u1ea1i \u1ea5y tr\u1edf m\u00ecnh.<\/p>\n

\u0110\u00eam hai m\u01b0\u01a1i ch\u00edn th\u00e1ng T\u01b0 n\u0103m \u1ea5y, t\u00f4i v\u1eabn c\u00f2n l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t ng\u01b0\u1eddi l\u00ednh.<\/p>\n

Kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i h\u00ecnh \u1ea3nh m\u1ed9t ng\u01b0\u1eddi l\u00ednh trong s\u00e1ch v\u1edf, v\u1edbi chi\u1ebfn tuy\u1ebfn r\u00f5 r\u00e0ng v\u00e0 m\u1ec7nh l\u1ec7nh r\u00e0nh r\u1ecdt, m\u00e0 l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t con ng\u01b0\u1eddi \u0111\u1ee9ng gi\u1eefa m\u1ed9t th\u1ef1c t\u1ea1i \u0111ang r\u1ea1n v\u1ee1. \u1ede ph\u00eda t\u00e2y S\u00e0i G\u00f2n, quanh v\u00f2ng \u0111ai phi tr\u01b0\u1eddng T\u00e2n S\u01a1n Nh\u1ee9t\u2026 ch\u00fang t\u00f4i c\u00f2n chi\u1ebfn \u0111\u1ea5u. Chi\u1ebfn \u0111\u1ea5u kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i v\u00ec hy v\u1ecdng chi\u1ebfn th\u1eafng, m\u00e0 v\u00ec kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 bu\u00f4ng. Kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 \u0111\u1ea7u h\u00e0ng.<\/p>\n

C\u00f3 nh\u1eefng th\u1ee9, m\u1ed9t khi \u0111\u00e3 th\u1ea5m v\u00e0o m\u00e1u nh\u01b0 danh d\u1ef1, tr\u00e1ch nhi\u1ec7m, l\u1eddi th\u1ec1\u2026 th\u00ec kh\u00f4ng d\u1ec5 g\u00ec \u0111\u1eb7t xu\u1ed1ng, kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 bu\u00f4ng b\u1ecf, ngay c\u1ea3 khi bi\u1ebft r\u1eb1ng t\u1ea5t c\u1ea3 \u0111ang tr\u01b0\u1ee3t kh\u1ecfi t\u1ea7m tay.<\/p>\n

Chi\u1ebfn tranh trong nh\u1eefng gi\u1edd ph\u00fat cu\u1ed1i kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n l\u00e0 chi\u1ebfn tranh theo ngh\u0129a quen thu\u1ed9c. N\u00f3 kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t v\u00e1n c\u1edd. N\u00f3 tr\u1edf th\u00e0nh m\u1ed9t c\u01a1n s\u00f3ng l\u1edbn. V\u00e0 ch\u00fang t\u00f4i l\u00e0 nh\u1eefng con ng\u01b0\u1eddi \u0111\u1ee9ng tr\u01b0\u1edbc l\u00e0n s\u00f3ng hung b\u1ea1o \u1ea5y, c\u1ed1 gi\u1eef th\u0103ng b\u1eb1ng tr\u00ean nh\u1eefng m\u1ea3nh v\u1ee1 c\u00f2n s\u00f3t l\u1ea1i.<\/p>\n

Ti\u1ebfng s\u00fang v\u1eabn n\u1ed5. Nh\u01b0ng kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n nh\u1ecbp \u0111i\u1ec7u c\u1ee7a chi\u1ebfn thu\u1eadt. N\u00f3 d\u1ed3n d\u1eadp nh\u01b0 nh\u1ecbp tim c\u1ee7a m\u1ed9t c\u01a1 th\u1ec3 ki\u1ec7t s\u1ee9c. M\u1ed7i ph\u00e1t s\u00fang kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n nh\u1eafm \u0111\u1ebfn chi\u1ebfn th\u1eafng, m\u00e0 nh\u01b0 m\u1ed9t c\u00e1ch n\u00edu gi\u1eef m\u1ed9t hy v\u1ecdng mong manh d\u00f9 bi\u1ebft hy v\u1ecdng \u1ea5y g\u1ea7n nh\u01b0 kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n.<\/p>\n

Nh\u01b0ng c\u0169ng kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 b\u1eafn b\u1eeba. \u0110\u1ea1n d\u01b0\u1ee3c \u0111\u00e3 c\u1ea1n. M\u1ed7i vi\u00ean \u0111\u1ea1n \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c \u0111\u1ebfm nh\u01b0 gi\u1ecdt m\u00e1u cu\u1ed1i c\u00f9ng. Trong khi \u0111\u00f3, \u0111\u1ed1i ph\u01b0\u01a1ng \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c che ch\u1edf b\u1edfi nh\u1eefng t\u1ea7ng ph\u00f2ng kh\u00f4ng d\u00e0y \u0111\u1eb7c. Ch\u00fang t\u00f4i chi\u1ebfn \u0111\u1ea5u trong thi\u1ebfu th\u1ed1n, trong b\u1ecb \u0111\u1ed9ng, trong m\u1ed9t th\u1ebf tr\u1eadn m\u00e0 ph\u1ea7n thua \u0111\u00e3 hi\u1ec7n r\u00f5.<\/p>\n

Ng\u01b0\u1eddi M\u1ef9 \u0111\u00e3 quay l\u01b0ng. Ng\u01b0\u1eddi M\u1ef9 \u0111\u00e3 b\u1ecf r\u01a1i ch\u00fang t\u00f4i, b\u1ecf r\u01a1i c\u00e1i ti\u1ec1n \u0111\u1ed3n m\u00e0 h\u1ecd \u0111\u00e3 t\u1eebng d\u00f9ng ch\u00fang t\u00f4i \u0111\u1ec3 ng\u0103n c\u1ea3n s\u1ef1 th\u1ed1ng tr\u1ecb c\u1ee7a tri\u1ebft thuy\u1ebft C\u1ed9ng S\u1ea3n. Nh\u01b0ng ch\u00fang t\u00f4i v\u1eabn ph\u1ea3i chi\u1ebfn \u0111\u1ea5u \u0111\u1ec3 b\u1ea3o v\u1ec7 n\u1ec1n t\u1ef1 do d\u00e2n ch\u1ee7 cho ng\u01b0\u1eddi d\u00e2n ch\u00fang t\u00f4i, cho \u0111\u1ea5t n\u01b0\u1edbc ch\u00fang t\u00f4i.<\/p>\n

Anh em v\u1eabn thay nhau bay. Bay trong nh\u1eefng \u0111i\u1ec1u ki\u1ec7n kh\u1eafc nghi\u1ec7t, bay nh\u01b0 nh\u1eefng v\u00f5 s\u0129 b\u1ecb tr\u00f3i tay ch\u00e2n, n\u00e9m l\u00ean v\u00f5 \u0111\u00e0i tr\u01b0\u1edbc m\u1ed9t \u0111\u1ecbch th\u1ee7 hung t\u00e0n. Ng\u01b0\u1eddi n\u00e0y h\u1ebft gi\u1edd, ng\u01b0\u1eddi kh\u00e1c l\u00ean. Kh\u00f4ng ai n\u00f3i nh\u01b0ng ai c\u0169ng hi\u1ec3u\u2026 ch\u00fang t\u00f4i \u0111ang \u1edf trong m\u1ed9t ho\u00e0n c\u1ea3nh v\u00f4 v\u1ecdng. C\u00f2n n\u1ed7i bi th\u01b0\u01a1ng n\u00e0o h\u01a1n th\u1ebf kh\u00f4ng?<\/p>\n

T\u00f4i c\u00f2n nh\u1edb nh\u1eefng \u00e1nh m\u1eaft \u0111\u00eam \u1ea5y. Kh\u00f4ng ai n\u00f3i v\u1edbi ai m\u1ed9t l\u1eddi g\u00ec ngo\u00e0i nh\u1eefng thao t\u00e1c quen thu\u1ed9c, ng\u00f4n ng\u1eef chi\u1ebfn tr\u1eadn quen thu\u1ed9c. Nh\u1eefng \u00e1nh m\u1eaft g\u1eb7p nhau gi\u1eefa \u00e1nh ch\u1edbp v\u00e0 b\u00f3ng t\u1ed1i ch\u1ec9 \u0111\u1ec3 x\u00e1c nh\u1eadn m\u1ed9t \u0111i\u1ec1u, ch\u00fang t\u00f4i v\u1eabn c\u00f2n c\u00f3 nhau nh\u01b0 \u0111\u00e3 t\u1eebng m\u1ed7i khi x\u00f4ng v\u00e0o l\u1eeda \u0111\u1ea1n, \u0111\u00e1nh c\u01b0\u1ee3c v\u1edbi t\u1eed sinh.<\/p>\n

V\u00e0 c\u0169ng kh\u00f4ng ai n\u00f3i v\u1edbi ai \u0111\u00f3 l\u00e0 \u0111\u00eam cu\u1ed1i. Nh\u01b0ng ai c\u0169ng c\u1ea3m th\u1ea5y s\u1ef1 b\u1ea5t l\u1ef1c qua t\u1eebng vi\u00ean \u0111\u1ea1n b\u1eafn ra. Nh\u01b0ng ai c\u0169ng bi\u1ebft m\u1ed9t \u0111i\u1ec1u g\u00ec \u0111\u00f3 \u0111ang \u0111\u1ebfn h\u1ed3i k\u1ebft th\u00fac. Kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i ch\u1ec9 l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t tr\u1eadn \u0111\u00e1nh m\u00e0 l\u00e0 c\u1ea3 m\u1ed9t th\u1eddi \u0111\u1ea1i.<\/p>\n

Vi\u1ebft \u0111\u1ebfn \u0111\u00e2y, m\u1eaft t\u00f4i l\u1ea1i nh\u00f2e \u0111i. T\u00f4i \u0111\u1ee9ng d\u1eady, b\u01b0\u1edbc ra sau v\u01b0\u1eddn, ch\u00e2m m\u1ed9t \u0111i\u1ebfu thu\u1ed1c. Gi\u00f3 th\u1ed5i qua h\u00e0ng chu\u00f4ng gi\u00f3, nh\u1eefng ti\u1ebfng leng keng nh\u01b0 ti\u1ebfng g\u1ecdi t\u1eeb m\u1ed9t c\u00f5i n\u00e0o xa l\u1eafm. T\u00f4i h\u00edt s\u00e2u. Th\u1edf m\u1ea1nh. R\u1ed3i quay v\u00e0o, ti\u1ebfp t\u1ee5c vi\u1ebft.<\/p>\n

Chuy\u1ebfn bay khuya h\u00f4m \u0111\u00f3\u2026 sau khi b\u00e0n giao v\u00f9ng tr\u00e1ch nhi\u1ec7m, t\u00f4i tr\u1edf v\u1ec1 c\u01b0 x\u00e1. Hai \u0111\u1ee9a h\u1ecdc tr\u00f2 nh\u1ecf t\u00f4i mang v\u1ec1 t\u1eeb tr\u01b0a h\u00f4m tr\u01b0\u1edbc v\u1eabn c\u00f2n th\u1ee9c. Hai \u0111\u1ee9a, nh\u01b0 t\u00f4i v\u1eabn n\u00f3i \u0111\u00f9a, \u201ctr\u00f3i g\u00e0 kh\u00f4ng ch\u1eb7t\u201d. Ch\u00fang t\u00f4i v\u1eeba n\u1eb1m xu\u1ed1ng th\u00ec nghe ph\u00e1o k\u00edch d\u1eef d\u1ed9i v\u00e0o phi tr\u01b0\u1eddng. R\u1ed3i m\u1ed9t ti\u1ebfng r\u00edt x\u00e9 tai – ho\u1ea3 ti\u1ec5n 122 ly. Nh\u01b0ng\u2026 kh\u00f4ng nghe ti\u1ebfng n\u1ed5. Cho \u0111\u1ebfn s\u00e1ng h\u00f4m sau, m\u1ecdi ng\u01b0\u1eddi trong c\u01b0 x\u00e1 m\u1edbi bi\u1ebft l\u00e0 \u0111\u00e3 tho\u00e1t ch\u1ebft gi\u1eefa \u0111\u00eam qua khi nh\u00ecn th\u1ea5y ph\u1ea7n \u0111u\u00f4i c\u1ee7a chi\u1ebfc ho\u1ea3 ti\u1ec5n \u0111ang c\u1eafm s\u00e2u v\u00e0o l\u00f2ng \u0111\u1ea5t b\u00ean c\u1ea1nh c\u01b0 x\u00e1 \u0111\u1ed9c th\u00e2n. <\/p>\n

Bu\u1ed5i s\u00e1ng h\u00f4m \u1ea5y \u0111\u00e3 kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t bu\u1ed5i s\u00e1ng b\u00ecnh th\u01b0\u1eddng, khi th\u1ea5y chi\u1ebfc Tinh Long 7 c\u1ee7a phi \u0111o\u00e0n t\u00f4i b\u1ecb b\u1eafn r\u01a1i ngo\u00e0i v\u00f2ng \u0111ai phi tr\u01b0\u1eddng, tr\u01b0\u1edbc nh\u01b0ng \u0111\u00f4i m\u1eaft ho\u1ea3ng lo\u1ea1n c\u1ee7a anh em. \u0110\u00f3 l\u00e0 gi\u1ecdt n\u01b0\u1edbc l\u00e0m tr\u00e0n ly, kh\u00f4ng ai n\u00f3i v\u1edbi ai l\u1eddi n\u00e0o, m\u1ed7i ng\u01b0\u1eddi ch\u1ea1y \u0111i m\u1ed9t ng\u1ea3.<\/p>\n

T\u00f4i c\u00f9ng hai ch\u00fa em \u0111\u00e8o nhau l\u00ean chi\u1ebfc Lambretite, ch\u1ea1y kh\u1eafp c\u00e1c b\u00e3i \u0111\u1eadu t\u00ecm phi c\u01a1 tho\u00e1t th\u00e2n. Nh\u01b0ng nh\u1eefng chi\u1ebfc c\u00f2n bay \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c \u0111\u00e3 bay \u0111i \u0111\u00e2u h\u1ebft. \u0110ang \u0111\u1ee9ng ng\u01a1 ng\u00e1c th\u00ec \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c m\u1ed9t ni\u00ean tr\u01b0\u1edfng k\u00e9o t\u00f4i ch\u1ea1y theo \u0111\u1ebfn m\u1ed9t chi\u1ebfc C-130 kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n nguy\u00ean v\u1eb9n, \u0111\u1ec3 l\u00e0m ph\u1eadn s\u1ef1 phi c\u00f4ng ph\u1ee5.<\/p>\n

Chi\u1ebfc phi c\u01a1 c\u1ea5t c\u00e1nh t\u1eeb cu\u1ed1i \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng b\u0103ng. Kh\u00f4ng \u0111\u1ee7 t\u1ed1c \u0111\u1ed9. Kh\u00f4ng \u0111\u1ee7 \u0111i\u1ec1u ki\u1ec7n. Nh\u01b0ng v\u1eabn ph\u1ea3i b\u1ed1c m\u00ecnh l\u00ean nh\u1edd v\u00e0o b\u1ed1n \u0111\u1ed9ng c\u01a1 b\u00e1n ph\u1ea3n l\u1ef1c. Chi\u1ebfc m\u00e1y bay g\u01b0\u1ee3ng l\u00ean, nh\u1eafm h\u01b0\u1edbng V\u0169ng T\u00e0u r\u1ed3i\u2026 tr\u1ef1c ch\u1ec9 Utapao, Th\u00e1i Lan mang theo 115 con ng\u01b0\u1eddi kh\u00f4ng bi\u1ebft h\u1ecd \u0111\u00e3 l\u00ean b\u1eb1ng c\u00e1ch n\u00e0o.<\/p>\n

Chi\u1ec1u h\u00f4m \u0111\u00f3, 29 th\u00e1ng 4 n\u0103m 1975, t\u00f4i v\u00e0 m\u1ed9t s\u1ed1 anh em trong phi h\u00e0nh \u0111o\u00e0n \u0111\u00e3 s\u1eefng s\u1edd r\u01a1i n\u01b0\u1edbc m\u1eaft khi th\u1ea5y m\u1ed9t \u0111\u1ed9i ng\u0169 qu\u00e2n nh\u00e2n ng\u01b0\u1eddi M\u1ef9 b\u1eafc thang l\u00ean th\u00e2n m\u00e1y bay s\u01a1n b\u1ecf huy hi\u1ec7u Kh\u00f4ng Qu\u00e2n VNCH, sau khi m\u1ecdi ng\u01b0\u1eddi b\u1ecb t\u01b0\u1edbc kh\u00ed gi\u1edbi tr\u01b0\u1edbc khi b\u01b0\u1edbc ra kh\u1ecfi th\u00e2n phi c\u01a1.<\/p>\n

Th\u1ebf l\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 bu\u1ed9c ph\u1ea3i r\u1eddi kh\u1ecfi \u0111\u1ea5t n\u01b0\u1edbc trong b\u00e0ng ho\u00e0ng, trong v\u00f4 th\u1ee9c, kh\u00f4ng k\u1ecbp bi\u1ebft \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c tin cha m\u1eb9 anh ch\u1ecb em \u0111\u00e3 b\u1ecb th\u1ea5t l\u1ea1c ph\u01b0\u01a1ng n\u00e0o m\u1ea5y th\u00e1ng qua trong chi\u1ebfn tranh. Kh\u00f4ng k\u1ecbp b\u00e1o tin v\u1edbi ng\u01b0\u1eddi v\u1ee3 s\u1eafp c\u01b0\u1edbi ch\u1ec9 \u1edf c\u00e1ch phi tr\u01b0\u1eddng kho\u1ea3ng 6 c\u00e2y s\u1ed1! V\u00e0 c\u1ee9 th\u1ebf, b\u1ecb \u0111\u01b0a \u0111\u1ea9y d\u1ecdc theo h\u00e0nh tr\u00ecnh tr\u1edf l\u1ea1i \u0111\u1ea5t n\u01b0\u1edbc n\u1ea7y v\u1edbi th\u00e2n ph\u1eadn v\u00f4 gia \u0111\u00ecnh, v\u00f4 t\u1ed5 qu\u1ed1c. M\u00e3i \u0111\u1ebfn v\u00e0i n\u0103m sau m\u1edbi li\u00ean l\u1ea1c l\u1ea1i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c!<\/p>\n

Cho \u0111\u1ebfn b\u00e2y gi\u1edd, sau h\u01a1n n\u1eeda th\u1ebf k\u1ef7, c\u00e1i \u201ckh\u00f4ng k\u1ecbp\u201d \u1ea5y v\u1eabn c\u00f2n nguy\u00ean v\u1eb9n trong t\u00f4i, nh\u01b0 m\u1ed9t kho\u1ea3ng tr\u1ed1ng kh\u00f4ng bao gi\u1edd c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 l\u1ea5p \u0111\u1ea7y. Kh\u00f4ng k\u1ecbp nh\u00ecn cha m\u1eb9 l\u1ea7n cu\u1ed1i. Kh\u00f4ng k\u1ecbp n\u00f3i m\u1ed9t l\u1eddi t\u1eeb bi\u1ec7t v\u1edbi b\u1ea5t c\u1ee9 ng\u01b0\u1eddi th\u00e2n y\u00eau n\u00e0o. Kh\u00f4ng k\u1ecbp kh\u00e9p l\u1ea1i m\u1ed9t c\u00e1nh c\u1eeda \u0111\u1eddi qu\u00e2n ng\u0169 theo c\u00e1ch m\u00e0 m\u1ed9t con ng\u01b0\u1eddi l\u00ednh b\u00ecnh th\u01b0\u1eddng \u0111\u00e1ng \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c c\u00f3.<\/p>\n

C\u00f3 nh\u1eefng cu\u1ed9c chia ly kh\u00f4ng c\u00f3 l\u1eddi t\u1eeb bi\u1ec7t, v\u00e0 ch\u00ednh v\u00ec th\u1ebf, ch\u00fang kh\u00f4ng bao gi\u1edd k\u1ebft th\u00fac.
\nT\u00f4i ra \u0111i trong m\u1ed9t tr\u1ea1ng th\u00e1i kh\u00f4ng ho\u00e0n to\u00e0n t\u1ec9nh t\u00e1o. Kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i ch\u1ec9 ho\u1ea3ng lo\u1ea1n m\u00e0 l\u00e0 t\u00ea \u0111i\u1ebfng. M\u1ecdi th\u1ee9 di\u1ec5n ra qu\u00e1 s\u1ee9c nhanh, qu\u00e1 s\u1ee9c b\u1ea5t ng\u1edd, con ng\u01b0\u1eddi t\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n c\u1ea3m x\u00fac r\u00f5 r\u00e0ng. Ch\u1ec9 c\u00f2n h\u00e0nh \u0111\u1ed9ng. Ch\u1ec9 c\u00f2n b\u1ea3n n\u0103ng. T\u00f4i ra \u0111i, nh\u01b0 m\u1ed9t ng\u01b0\u1eddi b\u1ecb \u0111\u1ea9y ra kh\u1ecfi ch\u00ednh cu\u1ed9c \u0111\u1eddi m\u00ecnh trong khi trong l\u00f2ng v\u1eabn c\u00f2n m\u1ed9t ni\u1ec1m tin r\u1ea5t mong manh r\u1eb1ng \u0111\u00e2y ch\u1ec9 l\u00e0 t\u1ea1m th\u1eddi. R\u1eb1ng r\u1ed3i s\u1ebd c\u00f3 ng\u00e0y tr\u1edf l\u1ea1i. R\u1eb1ng qu\u00ea h\u01b0\u01a1ng kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 bi\u1ebfn m\u1ea5t ch\u1ec9 qua m\u1ed9t \u0111\u00eam. R\u1eb1ng nh\u1eefng g\u00ec \u0111\u00e3 x\u00e2y d\u1ef1ng, \u0111\u00e3 s\u1ed1ng, \u0111\u00e3 y\u00eau, kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 b\u1ecb x\u00f3a \u0111i d\u1ec5 d\u00e0ng nh\u01b0 v\u1eady.<\/p>\n

C\u00f3 nhi\u1ec1u l\u1ea7n t\u00f4i ngh\u0129, s\u1ef1 ra \u0111i b\u1ea5t ch\u1ee3t c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i s\u1ebd kh\u00f4ng nhi\u1ec1u h\u1ed1i ti\u1ebfc, nhi\u1ec1u \u0111\u1edbn \u0111au n\u1ebfu d\u00e2n t\u1ed9c t\u00f4i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c t\u1ef1 do h\u1ea1nh ph\u00fac h\u01a1n, \u0111\u1ea5t n\u01b0\u1edbc t\u00f4i tr\u1edf n\u00ean thanh b\u00ecnh, v\u01b0\u01a1n l\u00ean oai nghi, d\u0169ng m\u00e3nh nh\u01b0 con r\u1ed3ng, con h\u1ed5. Nh\u01b0ng r\u1ea5t ti\u1ebfc! R\u1ea5t ti\u1ebfc!<\/p>\n

Th\u1eddi gian, b\u1eb1ng s\u1ef1 im l\u1eb7ng k\u00e9o d\u00e0i c\u1ee7a n\u00f3, \u0111\u00e3 d\u1ea7n d\u1ea7n d\u1ea1y t\u00f4i hi\u1ec3u. Kh\u00f4ng c\u00f3 ng\u00e0y tr\u1edf l\u1ea1i nh\u01b0 t\u00f4i t\u1eebng mong \u0111\u1ee3i. Kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i v\u00ec kh\u00f4ng mu\u1ed1n, m\u00e0 v\u00ec con \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng \u0111\u00e3 kh\u00e9p l\u1ea1i t\u1eeb l\u00fac Vi\u1ec7t c\u1ed9ng x\u00e2m chi\u1ebfm mi\u1ec1n Nam; ch\u00fang \u0111\u00e3 v\u00e0 \u0111ang g\u00e2y ra bao nhi\u00eau \u0111au th\u01b0\u01a1ng cho n\u00f2i gi\u1ed1ng, cho m\u1ea3nh giang s\u01a1n g\u1ea5m v\u00f3c c\u1ee7a \u00f4ng b\u00e0, ti\u00ean t\u1ed5.<\/p>\n

M\u1ea5t qu\u00ea h\u01b0\u01a1ng kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t bi\u1ebfn c\u1ed1 x\u1ea3y ra trong m\u1ed9t ng\u00e0y. N\u00f3 l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t qu\u00e1 tr\u00ecnh. Ban \u0111\u1ea7u l\u00e0 s\u1ef1 b\u00e0ng ho\u00e0ng. Sau \u0111\u00f3 l\u00e0 ni\u1ec1m hy v\u1ecdng. R\u1ed3i ni\u1ec1m hy v\u1ecdng m\u1ecfng d\u1ea7n \u0111i theo ng\u00e0y th\u00e1ng. V\u00e0 cu\u1ed1i c\u00f9ng l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t s\u1ef1 ch\u1ea5p nh\u1eadn trong im l\u1eb7ng. Kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i ch\u1ea5p nh\u1eadn v\u00ec \u0111\u1ed3ng \u00fd m\u00e0 v\u00ec d\u01b0\u1eddng nh\u01b0 kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n c\u00e1ch n\u00e0o kh\u00e1c.<\/p>\n

Nh\u1eefng n\u0103m \u0111\u1ea7u n\u01a1i qu\u00ea h\u01b0\u01a1ng th\u1ee9 hai n\u1ea7y, m\u1ecdi th\u1ee9 \u0111\u1ec1u xa l\u1ea1. Ng\u00f4n ng\u1eef, phong t\u1ee5c, con ng\u01b0\u1eddi, \u0111\u1eddi s\u1ed1ng. T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 h\u1ecdc t\u00e1i sinh tr\u01b0\u1edbc khi h\u1ecdc c\u00e1ch t\u1ed3n t\u1ea1i. H\u1ecdc c\u00e1ch hi\u1ec3u ng\u01b0\u1eddi kh\u00e1c, tr\u01b0\u1edbc khi c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 n\u00f3i cho ng\u01b0\u1eddi kh\u00e1c hi\u1ec3u m\u00ecnh. H\u1ecdc c\u00e1ch \u0111\u1ee9ng v\u1eefng tr\u00ean ch\u00ednh \u0111\u00f4i ch\u00e2n m\u00ecnh khi trong th\u00e2m t\u00e2m v\u1eabn kh\u00f4ng ng\u1edbt \u0111\u1ee3i ch\u1edd m\u1ed9t ph\u00e9p l\u1ea1, m\u1ed9t \u00e1nh s\u00e1ng nh\u1ecf nhoi \u1edf cu\u1ed1i \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng h\u1ea7m.<\/p>\n

Ng\u01b0\u1eddi ta c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 quen v\u1edbi nhi\u1ec1u th\u1ee9. Quen v\u1edbi th\u1eddi ti\u1ebft kh\u00e1c, quen v\u1edbi nhi\u1ec1u m\u00f3n \u0103n l\u1ea1, quen v\u1edbi nh\u1ecbp s\u1ed1ng c\u1ee7a m\u1ed9t d\u00e2n t\u1ed9c kh\u00e1c. Nh\u01b0ng c\u00f3 m\u1ed9t th\u1ee9 kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 l\u00e0m quen \u0111\u00f3 l\u00e0 t\u00ecnh t\u1ef1 qu\u00ea h\u01b0\u01a1ng \u0111\u00e3 m\u1ea5t.<\/p>\n

Qu\u00ea h\u01b0\u01a1ng kh\u00f4ng ch\u1ec9 l\u00e0 n\u01a1i m\u00ecnh sinh ra. N\u00f3 l\u00e0 n\u01a1i m\u00e0 m\u1ecdi th\u1ee9 \u0111\u1ec1u c\u00f3 \u00fd ngh\u0129a m\u00e0 kh\u00f4ng c\u1ea7n rao gi\u1ea3ng. M\u1ed9t con \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng, m\u1ed9t g\u00f3c ph\u1ed1, m\u1ed9t ti\u1ebfng rao, m\u1ed9t m\u00f9i h\u01b0\u01a1ng\u2026 t\u1ea5t c\u1ea3 \u0111\u1ec1u mang theo m\u1ed9t ph\u1ea7n \u0111\u1eddi. Khi m\u1ea5t \u0111i, kh\u00f4ng ch\u1ec9 l\u00e0 m\u1ea5t m\u1ed9t n\u01a1i ch\u1ed1n, m\u00e0 l\u00e0 m\u1ea5t c\u1ea3 m\u1ed9t h\u1ec7 k\u00fd \u1ee9c, m\u1ed9t c\u1ea5u tr\u00fac c\u1ee7a \u0111\u1eddi s\u1ed1ng con ng\u01b0\u1eddi. <\/p>\n

C\u00f3 nh\u1eefng bu\u1ed5i s\u00e1ng, t\u00f4i t\u1ec9nh d\u1eady v\u00e0 trong m\u1ed9t kho\u1ea3nh kh\u1eafc r\u1ea5t ng\u1eafn, t\u00f4i qu\u00ean m\u1ea5t m\u00ecnh \u0111ang \u1edf \u0111\u00e2u. Trong kho\u1ea3nh kh\u1eafc \u0111\u00f3, t\u00f4i v\u1eabn l\u00e0 con ng\u01b0\u1eddi c\u1ee7a ng\u00e0y x\u01b0a, s\u1ed1ng trong m\u1ed9t th\u00e0nh ph\u1ed1 quen thu\u1ed9c, nh\u1eefng \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng bay d\u1ecdc ngang tr\u00ean b\u1ea7u tr\u1eddi mi\u1ec1n Nam n\u01b0\u1edbc Vi\u1ec7t m\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 thu\u1ed9c l\u00f2ng. Nh\u01b0ng r\u1ed3i th\u1ef1c t\u1ea1i tr\u1edf v\u1ec1, kh\u00f4ng \u1ed3n \u00e0o, nh\u01b0ng d\u1ee9t kho\u00e1t, nh\u01b0 m\u1ed9t b\u00e0n tay ai \u0111\u00f3 \u0111\u1eb7t nh\u1eb9 nh\u00e0ng l\u00ean vai, nh\u1eafc t\u00f4i r\u1eb1ng t\u1ea5t c\u1ea3 \u0111\u00e3 tr\u1edf th\u00e0nh d\u0129 v\u00e3ng.<\/p>\n

C\u00f3 nhi\u1ec1u l\u00fac t\u00f4i th\u1ea3ng th\u1ed1t ngh\u0129 r\u1eb1ng:<\/p>\n

S\u1ee3 m\u1ed9t mai th\u00e2n n\u1eb1m y\u00ean l\u00f2ng \u0111\u1ea5t
\nH\u1ed3n l\u1ebb loi t\u00ecm kh\u00f4ng th\u1ea5y qu\u00ea nh\u00e0<\/em><\/p>\n

N\u0103m m\u01b0\u01a1i m\u1ed1t n\u0103m tr\u00f4i qua.<\/p>\n

M\u1ed9t \u0111\u1eddi ng\u01b0\u1eddi c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 ch\u1ee9a \u0111\u1ef1ng bao nhi\u00eau k\u00fd \u1ee9c? C\u00f3 th\u1ec3 ch\u1ecbu \u0111\u1ef1ng bao nhi\u00eau m\u1ea5t m\u00e1t? C\u00f3 th\u1ec3 gi\u1eef l\u1ea1i \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c bao nhi\u00eau \u0111i\u1ec1u m\u00e0 kh\u00f4ng \u0111\u00e1nh m\u1ea5t ch\u00ednh m\u00ecnh?<\/p>\n

T\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 s\u1ed1ng. \u0110\u00e3 l\u00e0m vi\u1ec7c. \u0110\u00e3 x\u00e2y d\u1ef1ng l\u1ea1i cu\u1ed9c \u0111\u1eddi. \u0110\u00e3 c\u00f3 nh\u1eefng ni\u1ec1m vui, nh\u1eefng th\u00e0nh t\u1ef1u, nh\u1eefng m\u1ed1i quan h\u1ec7 x\u00e3 h\u1ed9i r\u1ea5t t\u1ed1t. Nh\u01b0ng t\u1ea5t c\u1ea3 nh\u1eefng \u0111i\u1ec1u \u0111\u00f3, d\u00f9 c\u00f3 th\u1eadt, d\u00f9 c\u00f3 \u00fd ngh\u0129a, v\u1eabn kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 thay th\u1ebf \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c nh\u1eefng g\u00ec \u0111\u00e3 m\u1ea5t.<\/p>\n

T\u00f4i nh\u1edb nh\u1eefng ng\u00e0y th\u00e1ng tr\u01b0\u1edbc n\u0103m 1975. Kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i v\u00ec ch\u00fang ho\u00e0n h\u1ea3o, m\u00e0 v\u00ec ch\u00fang l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t ph\u1ea7n \u0111\u1eddi quan tr\u1ecdng c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i. Nh\u1eefng s\u00e1ng n\u1eafng chi\u1ec1u m\u01b0a, nh\u1eefng ng\u00e0y l\u1ed9ng gi\u00f3, nh\u1eefng \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng bay quen thu\u1ed9c, nh\u1eefng khung tr\u1eddi bao la, nh\u1eefng sinh t\u1eed c\u1eadn k\u1ec1, nh\u1eefng cu\u1ed9c g\u1eb7p g\u1ee1, nh\u1eefng c\u00e2u chuy\u1ec7n, nh\u1eefng \u01b0\u1edbc m\u01a1 ch\u01b0a k\u1ecbp th\u00e0nh h\u00ecnh. M\u1ed9t \u0111\u1eddi s\u1ed1ng b\u00ecnh th\u01b0\u1eddng nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf nh\u01b0ng khi m\u1ea5t \u0111i, t\u00f4i m\u1edbi hi\u1ec3u gi\u00e1 tr\u1ecb c\u1ee7a n\u00f3 s\u1ebd kh\u00f4ng bao gi\u1edd c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 thay th\u1ebf \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c.<\/p>\n

K\u00fd \u1ee9c, theo th\u1eddi gian, kh\u00f4ng phai nh\u1ea1t \u0111i nh\u01b0 ng\u01b0\u1eddi ta t\u01b0\u1edfng. N\u00f3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c ch\u1eaft l\u1ecdc. Nh\u1eefng g\u00ec kh\u00f4ng quan tr\u1ecdng s\u1ebd r\u01a1i r\u1ee5ng t\u1ef1 nhi\u00ean. Nh\u1eefng g\u00ec c\u00f2n l\u1ea1i s\u1ebd tr\u1edf n\u00ean r\u00f5 n\u00e9t h\u01a1n, tinh khi\u1ebft h\u01a1n, v\u00e0 v\u00ec th\u1ebf, c\u0169ng \u0111au x\u00f3t h\u01a1n.<\/p>\n

V\u00e0 t\u00f4i mang trong m\u00ecnh m\u1ed9t n\u1ed7i h\u1eadn. Nh\u01b0ng kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t n\u1ed7i h\u1eadn \u0111\u01a1n gi\u1ea3n. N\u00f3 kh\u00f4ng h\u01b0\u1edbng v\u1ec1 nh\u1eefng con ng\u01b0\u1eddi b\u00ecnh th\u01b0\u1eddng. T\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng h\u1eadn ng\u01b0\u1eddi d\u00e2n M\u1ef9 m\u00e0 t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 g\u1eb7p, \u0111\u00e3 s\u1ed1ng c\u00f9ng, \u0111\u00e3 nh\u1eadn \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c s\u1ef1 gi\u00fap \u0111\u1ee1 c\u1ee7a h\u1ecd \u0111\u1ec3 x\u00e2y d\u1ef1ng l\u1ea1i cu\u1ed9c \u0111\u1eddi. T\u00f4i hi\u1ec3u r\u1eb1ng con ng\u01b0\u1eddi, \u1edf \u0111\u00e2u c\u0169ng c\u00f3 nh\u1eefng \u0111i\u1ec3m t\u01b0\u01a1ng \u0111\u1ed3ng gi\u1eefa thi\u1ec7n v\u00e0 \u00e1c, hi\u1ec3u bi\u1ebft v\u00e0 gi\u1edbi h\u1ea1n.<\/p>\n

Nh\u01b0ng t\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 kh\u00f4ng ngh\u0129 \u0111\u1ebfn nh\u1eefng quy\u1ebft \u0111\u1ecbnh sai l\u1ea7m c\u1ee7a h\u1ec7 th\u1ed1ng c\u1ea7m quy\u1ec1n ch\u00ednh ph\u1ee7 M\u1ef9 v\u00e0 \u0111\u1ed3ng minh, nh\u1eefng phong tr\u00e0o ph\u1ea3n chi\u1ebfn ngu xu\u1ea9n, nh\u1eefng c\u01a1 quan truy\u1ec1n th\u00f4ng d\u1ed1i tr\u00e1, l\u1eeba g\u1ea1t d\u01b0 lu\u1eadn. Nh\u1eefng \u0111i\u1ec1u n\u1ea7y \u0111\u00e3 g\u00f3p ph\u1ea7n l\u00e0m thay \u0111\u1ed5i s\u1ed1 ph\u1eadn c\u1ee7a nh\u1eefng qu\u1ed1c gia nh\u1ecf b\u00e9, ch\u1eadm ti\u1ebfn nh\u01b0 Mi\u1ec1n Nam Vi\u1ec7t Nam c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i. M\u1ed9t cu\u1ed9c chi\u1ebfn kh\u00f4ng ch\u1ec9 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c quy\u1ebft \u0111\u1ecbnh b\u1edfi nh\u1eefng g\u00ec x\u1ea3y ra tr\u00ean chi\u1ebfn tr\u01b0\u1eddng m\u00e0 n\u00f3 \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c quy\u1ebft \u0111\u1ecbnh b\u1edfi nh\u1eefng g\u00ec x\u1ea3y ra trong l\u00f2ng x\u00e3 h\u1ed9i, qua truy\u1ec1n th\u00f4ng, tr\u00ean tr\u01b0\u1eddng ch\u00ednh tr\u1ecb. <\/p>\n

Khi m\u1ed9t b\u00ean kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c th\u1ebf gi\u1edbi \u1ee7ng h\u1ed9, kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c b\u1ea1n b\u00e8 tin t\u01b0\u1edfng th\u00ec d\u00f9 c\u00f2n \u0111\u1ea7y \u0111\u1ee7 v\u0169 kh\u00ed c\u0169ng kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 gi\u1eef \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c, hu\u1ed1ng chi\u2026 ch\u00fang t\u00f4i \u0111\u00e3 ph\u1ea3i chi\u1ebfn \u0111\u1ea5u v\u1edbi c\u1ea3 m\u1ed9t th\u1ebf l\u1ef1c c\u1ed9ng s\u1ea3n qu\u1ed1c t\u1ebf h\u00f9ng m\u1ea1nh khi v\u0169 kh\u00ed \u0111\u00e3 b\u1ecb ch\u00ednh nh\u1eefng ng\u01b0\u1eddi b\u1ea1n \u0111\u1ed3ng minh t\u01b0\u1edbc b\u1ecf \u0111i.<\/p>\n

N\u1ed7i h\u1eadn c\u1ee7a t\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i \u0111\u1ec3 nu\u00f4i d\u01b0\u1ee1ng o\u00e1n th\u00f9 m\u00e0 l\u00e0 \u0111\u1ec3 nh\u1eafc nh\u1edb cho ch\u00ednh m\u00ecnh, nh\u1eafc nh\u1edf con ch\u00e1u \u0111\u1eddi sau nh\u1eefng g\u00ec \u0111\u00e3 x\u1ea3y ra cho qu\u00ea h\u01b0\u01a1ng, d\u00e2n t\u1ed9c t\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng b\u1ecb \u0111i v\u00e0o qu\u00ean l\u00e3ng. <\/p>\n

Sau t\u1ea5t c\u1ea3, \u0111i\u1ec1u c\u00f2n l\u1ea1i trong t\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng ch\u1ec9 l\u00e0 n\u1ed7i \u0111au. M\u00e0 l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t \u01b0\u1edbc v\u1ecdng. \u01af\u1edbc mong m\u1ed9t ng\u00e0y n\u00e0o \u0111\u00f3, \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c tr\u1edf v\u1ec1 trong t\u1ef1 do, trong danh d\u1ef1. Kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i \u0111\u1ec3 b\u1eaft \u0111\u1ea7u l\u1ea1i, m\u00e0 ch\u1ec9 \u0111\u1ec3 nh\u00ecn l\u1ea1i. \u0110\u1ec3 b\u01b0\u1edbc tr\u00ean nh\u1eefng con \u0111\u01b0\u1eddng c\u0169 d\u00f9 ch\u00fang \u0111\u00e3 b\u1ecb thay t\u00ean \u0111\u1ed5i h\u1ecd m\u1ed9t th\u1eddi. \u0110\u1ec3 nghe l\u1ea1i nh\u1eefng \u00e2m thanh, nh\u1eefng ti\u1ebfng n\u00f3i quen thu\u1ed9c \u1edf kh\u1eafp m\u1ecdi n\u01a1i. \u0110\u1ec3 th\u1ea5y l\u1ea1i m\u1ed9t qu\u00ea h\u01b0\u01a1ng b\u1eebng s\u00e1ng, m\u1ed9t x\u00e3 h\u1ed9i v\u0103n minh trong t\u00ecnh ng\u01b0\u1eddi. \u0110\u01b0\u1ee3c th\u1eadt s\u1ef1 h\u00e3nh di\u1ec7n v\u1edbi 4 ch\u1eef Con R\u1ed3ng Ch\u00e1u Ti\u00ean.<\/p>\n

\u1ede tu\u1ed5i n\u00e0y, t\u00f4i kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n s\u1ee3 nhi\u1ec1u \u0111i\u1ec1u. Kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n s\u1ee3 m\u1ea5t m\u00e1t v\u00ec \u0111\u00e3 m\u1ea5t m\u00e1t qu\u00e1 nhi\u1ec1u. Kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n s\u1ee3 thay \u0111\u1ed5i v\u00ec \u0111\u00e3 s\u1ed1ng qua nh\u1eefng thay \u0111\u1ed5i to l\u1edbn m\u00e0 ch\u1ec9 s\u1ee3 r\u1eb1ng m\u00ecnh s\u1ebd kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n \u0111\u1ee7 th\u1eddi gian. Kh\u00f4ng \u0111\u1ee7 th\u1eddi gian \u0111\u1ec3 th\u1ea5y ng\u00e0y \u1ea5y. Kh\u00f4ng \u0111\u1ee7 th\u1eddi gian \u0111\u1ec3 ch\u1ee9ng ki\u1ebfn m\u1ed9t k\u1ebft th\u00fac t\u1ed1t \u0111\u1eb9p nh\u01b0 th\u1ebf cho qu\u00ea h\u01b0\u01a1ng d\u00e2n t\u1ed9c m\u00ecnh; \u0111\u1ec3 bi\u1ebft r\u1eb1ng nh\u1eefng nghi\u1ec7t ng\u00e3 m\u00ecnh \u0111\u00e3 tr\u1ea3i qua trong \u0111\u1eddi kh\u00f4ng tr\u1edf n\u00ean v\u00f4 ngh\u0129a.<\/p>\n

S\u1ef1 ch\u1edd \u0111\u1ee3i n\u00e0o c\u0169ng kh\u00f4ng m\u1ea5y d\u1ec5 d\u00e0ng. Khi c\u00f2n tr\u1ebb th\u00ec c\u00f3 d\u1ec5 d\u00e0ng h\u01a1n, nh\u01b0ng khi th\u1eddi gian kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n nhi\u1ec1u, m\u1ed7i ng\u00e0y tr\u00f4i qua \u0111\u1ec1u mang theo m\u1ed9t c\u1ea3m gi\u00e1c b\u1ed3n ch\u1ed3n, lo s\u1ee3. Kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i v\u00ec mu\u1ed1n \u0111\u1ea1t \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c \u0111i\u1ec1u g\u00ec, m\u00e0 v\u00ec s\u1ee3 kh\u00f4ng c\u00f2n c\u01a1 h\u1ed9i \u1ea5y. <\/p>\n

Th\u00e1ng T\u01b0 l\u1ea1i \u0111\u1ebfn.<\/p>\n

V\u1eabn l\u00e0 nh\u1eefng c\u01a1n m\u01b0a nh\u1eb9 bu\u1ed5i s\u00e1ng, nh\u1eefng \u0111\u00e1m m\u00e2y tr\u1eafng b\u1ec1nh b\u1ed3ng \u1edf bu\u1ed5i chi\u1ec1u d\u00e0i, nh\u1eefng kho\u1ea3ng l\u1eb7ng kh\u00f3 g\u1ecdi t\u00ean\u2026 Nh\u1eefng ghi nh\u1eadn n\u1ea7y kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i \u0111\u1ec3 l\u00e0m th\u01a1, khp6ng ph\u1ea3i l\u00e0 th\u1eddi ti\u1ebft m\u00e0 l\u00e0 m\u1ed9t ph\u1ea7n c\u1ee7a \u0111\u1eddi s\u1ed1ng n\u1ed9i t\u00e2m, m\u1ed9t v\u00f9ng k\u00fd \u1ee9c m\u00e0 m\u1ed7i n\u0103m, v\u00e0o \u0111\u00fang th\u1eddi \u0111i\u1ec3m n\u00e0y, l\u1ea1i m\u1edf ra trong t\u00f4i.<\/p>\n

Th\u00e1ng T\u01b0 h\u1eadn.
\nTh\u00e1ng T\u01b0 \u0111au.
\nM\u1ed7i n\u0103m v\u1eabn c\u1ee9 theo nhau tr\u1edf v\u1ec1<\/em><\/p>\n

Nh\u01b0ng n\u1ebfu ch\u1ec9 c\u00f3 h\u1eadn v\u00e0 \u0111au, con ng\u01b0\u1eddi \u0111\u00e3 kh\u00f4ng th\u1ec3 \u0111i qua h\u01a1n n\u1eeda th\u1ebf k\u1ef7. V\u00ec \u1edf \u0111\u00e2u \u0111\u00f3, r\u1ea5t s\u00e2u, r\u1ea5t nh\u1ecf, v\u1eabn c\u00f2n m\u1ed9t th\u1ee9 kh\u00e1c. M\u1ed9t th\u1ee9 kh\u00f4ng s\u00f4i n\u1ed5i l\u1eafm, kh\u00f4ng m\u1ea1nh m\u1ebd nhi\u1ec1u nh\u01b0ng b\u1ec1n b\u1ec9. \u0110\u00f3 l\u00e0 ni\u1ec1m hy v\u1ecdng.<\/p>\n

Hy v\u1ecdng r\u1eb1ng m\u1ed9t ng\u00e0y n\u00e0o \u0111\u00f3, d\u00f9 m\u00ecnh c\u00f2n hay kh\u00f4ng, tr\u00ean m\u1ea3nh \u0111\u1ea5t h\u00ecnh cong ch\u1eef S \u1ea5y, ng\u01b0\u1eddi d\u00e2n s\u1ebd \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c s\u1ed1ng an b\u00ecnh, h\u1ea1nh ph\u00fac m\u00e0 kh\u00f4ng ph\u1ea3i c\u00fai \u0111\u1ea7u, lo s\u1ee3. S\u1ebd c\u00f3 nh\u1eefng ti\u1ebfng n\u00f3i kh\u00f4ng b\u1ecb b\u00f3p ngh\u1eb9t. S\u1ebd c\u00f3 nh\u1eefng gi\u1ea5c m\u01a1 kh\u00f4ng b\u1ecb d\u1eadp t\u1eaft. V\u00e0 khi ng\u00e0y \u0111\u00f3 \u0111\u1ebfn, c\u00f3 th\u1ec3, \u1edf m\u1ed9t n\u01a1i n\u00e0o \u0111\u00f3 r\u1ea5t xa, nh\u1eefng ng\u01b0\u1eddi \u0111\u00e3 ng\u1eadm ng\u00f9i n\u1eb1m xu\u1ed1ng s\u1ebd m\u1ec9m c\u01b0\u1eddi. D\u00f9 mu\u1ed9n m\u00e0ng nh\u01b0ng c\u0169ng c\u00f3 th\u1ec3 s\u1ebd che gi\u1ea5u \u0111\u01b0\u1ee3c nh\u1eefng ni\u1ec1m \u0111au, n\u1ed7i h\u1eadn trong l\u00f2ng c\u1ee7a nh\u1eefng ng\u01b0\u1eddi v\u00f5 s\u0129 b\u1ecb n\u00e9m l\u00ean \u0111\u1ea5u tr\u01b0\u1eddng sanh t\u1eed v\u1edbi tay ch\u00e2n b\u1ecb tr\u00f3i ch\u1eb7t.<\/p>\n

<\/br>
\nAPRIL OF RESENTMENT, APRIL OF PAIN<\/strong><\/p>\n

(Written for myself, written on behalf of others)<\/em><\/p>\n

April returns.<\/p>\n

No one needs to remind me, no clear sign is required\u2014only when the lingering echoes of the sadly Lunar New Year in this foreign land begin to fade, or when a pale spring afternoon settles over a quiet, solitary yard, my heart sinks. And I remember…<\/p>\n

There are months that pass like mere numbers. There are months that drift by like habits. But there are also months that never leave a person\u2019s life. That is April.<\/p>\n

April, to me, is not an ordinary measure of time. It is a mark etched deep within the soul\u2014a pain, a wound carved into the spirit, a place where memory halts, spirals downward, then spreads outward, filling the entire being.<\/p>\n

There are pains without sound, without tears, without lament. They lie still, deep and long, like a small shard of metal embedded in flesh\u2014not enough to kill, but enough to ache with every movement. And April is when that shard turns.<\/p>\n

On the night of April twenty-ninth, that year, I was still a soldier.<\/p>\n

Not the image of a soldier in books\u2014with clear frontlines and precise commands\u2014but a man standing in the midst of a reality coming apart. To the west of Saigon, around the perimeter of T\u00e2n S\u01a1n Nh\u1ee9t Air Base\u2026 we were still fighting. Not because we believed in victory, but because we could not let go. We could not surrender.<\/p>\n

There are things, once they have seeped into the blood\u2014honor, responsibility, an oath\u2014that cannot easily be set down, cannot be abandoned, even when everything is slipping beyond reach.<\/p>\n

In those final hours, war was no longer war in the familiar sense. It was no longer a game of strategy. It became a great wave. And we were men standing before that violent surge, struggling to keep our balance on what fragments remained.<\/p>\n

Gunfire continued. But it no longer carried the rhythm of tactics. It pounded like the heartbeat of an exhausted body. Each shot was no longer aimed at victory, but was instead a way to cling to a fragile hope\u2014though we knew that hope was nearly gone.<\/p>\n

And yet, we could not fire carelessly. Ammunition was nearly exhausted. Each bullet was counted like the last drop of blood. Meanwhile, the enemy was shielded by dense layers of air defense. We fought in shortage, in disadvantage, in a battle whose outcome had already revealed itself.<\/p>\n

America had turned away.<\/p>\n

America had abandoned us\u2014the very outpost they once used to resist the spread of Communist doctrine.<\/p>\n

Yet we still had to fight\u2014to defend freedom and democracy for our people, for our country.<\/p>\n

We took turns flying missions. Flying under brutal conditions, like fighters bound hand and foot, thrown into the ring before a ruthless opponent. One stepped down, another stepped up. No one spoke, yet everyone understood\u2014we were in a hopeless situation.<\/p>\n

What sorrow could be greater than that?<\/p>\n

I still remember the eyes that night. No words were exchanged beyond the familiar motions, the language of war. Eyes met eyes between flashes of fire and darkness\u2014only to confirm one thing: we still had each other, as we always had when charging into danger, wagering life and death.<\/p>\n

No one said it was the final night. Yet everyone felt the helplessness in every bullet fired. Everyone knew something was coming to an end\u2014not just a battle, but an entire era.<\/p>\n

As I write this, my vision blurs again. I stand up, walk into the backyard, light a cigarette. The wind moves through the chimes, their faint ringing like a call from a distant realm. I inhale deeply. Exhale hard. Then return to continue writing.<\/p>\n

That late-night flight\u2026 after handing over our area of responsibility, I returned to the quarters. The two young cadets I had taken in the previous day were still awake\u2014boys I used to joke were too gentle even to tie a chicken.<\/p>\n

We had just lain down when the airbase came under heavy bombardment. Then a piercing shriek\u2014a 122mm rocket. But\u2026 no explosion followed. It was only the next morning that we realized how narrowly we had escaped death, when we saw the tail of the rocket lodged deep in the ground beside the quarters.<\/p>\n

That morning was no ordinary morning. When we saw Tinh Long 7, from my squadron, shot down beyond the perimeter of the air base before the stunned eyes of my comrades, it became the final drop. No words were spoken. Everyone scattered.<\/p>\n

I took the two young brothers on a Lambrettite, rushing across the airfield to scour for an aircraft that is still usable to escape. But those that could still fly had already gone. As we stood there, stunned, a senior officer passed by and pulled me along to an unsafe C-130 to be his co-pilot.<\/p>\n

The aircraft took off at the end of the runway. Not enough speed. Not enough conditions. Yet it had to rise, forced upward by the thrust of its four turboprop engines. It struggled into the air, heading toward V\u0169ng T\u00e0u\u2026 then directly to U-Tapao, Thailand, carrying 115 souls who had somehow made their way aboard.<\/p>\n

That afternoon, April 29, 1975, we stood frozen, tears falling, as a group of American servicemen climbed onto the aircraft and painted over the insignia of the South Vietnamese Air Force, after we had all been disarmed before stepping off the airplane.<\/p>\n

And so I was forced to leave my country in shock, in a daze without knowing where my parents and siblings had been scattered during the war in the last couple months. Without sending a word to my fianc\u00e9e, who lived only six kilometers away.<\/p>\n

And just like that, I was carried along a journey into exile without family, without homeland.<\/p>\n

Even now, more than half a century later, that \u201cnot in time\u201d remains within me, an emptiness that can never be filled.<\/p>\n

Not in time to see my parents one last time. Not in time to say farewell to those I loved. Not in time to close the chapter of a soldier\u2019s life as it should have been ended.<\/p>\n

There are partings without farewell and because of that, they never truly end.<\/p>\n

I left in a state not entirely conscious, not only panic but numbness. Everything happened too fast, too suddenly. I had no clear emotions left only action, only instinct. I left as though pushed out of my own life, while still holding onto a fragile belief that it was temporary, that one day I would return, that a homeland could not vanish overnight, that what I had been lived, built, and loved could not simply be erased.<\/p>\n

There were times I thought if my sudden departure had led to a better fate for my people, a freer, more prosperous nation, rising strong like a dragon or a tiger… then perhaps the pain would have been less.<\/p>\n

But alas\u2026 it was not so.<\/p>\n

Time, through its long silence, gradually taught me the truth. There would be no return, as I once dreamed about; it doesn’t mean that I did not wish it, but because that path had been sealed from the moment the South fell. And since then, so much suffering has been inflicted upon our people, upon the land of our ancestors.<\/p>\n

Losing one\u2019s homeland is not an event of a single day. It is a process. First comes shock. Then hope. Then hope slowly thins away with time. And finally, a silent acceptance not because one agrees, but because there seems to be no other choice.<\/p>\n

In those early years in this second homeland, everything was foreign from language, customs, people to life itself. I learned how to be reborn before I learned how to survive. I learned to understand others before I could make myself understood. I learned to stand on my own feet while still quietly waiting for a miracle, for a faint light at the end of a long tunnel.<\/p>\n

One can grow accustomed to many things such as weather, different food, new rhythms of life. But one can never grow accustomed to the loss of a homeland.<\/p>\n

A homeland is not merely where one is born. It is where everything carries meaning without explanation; a street, a corner, a voice, a scent\u2026 all bearing fragments of a life. To lose it is not just to lose a place, but to lose an entire structure of memory, a foundation of one\u2019s existence.<\/p>\n

There are mornings when I wake up, for a brief moment, forget where I am. In that moment, I am still the man I once was, living in a familiar city, flying across the skies of southern Vietnam I knew by heart. Then reality returns not loudly, but definitely just like a gentle hand placed upon my shoulder, reminding me that everything has become the past.<\/p>\n

Sometimes I am struck by a sudden fear:
\n“That one day, when my body lies still beneath the earth,
\nMy lonely soul may wander\u2014
\nUnable to find its homeland.”<\/em><\/p>\n

Fifty-one years have passed.<\/p>\n

How many memories can a lifetime hold? How much loss can a person endure? How much can one preserve without losing oneself?<\/p>\n

I have lived. Worked. Rebuilt my life. Known joys, achievements, meaningful relationships. Yet none of it, however real, however meaningful, can replace what has been lost.<\/p>\n

I remember the days before 1975. Not because they were perfect, but because they were essential parts of my life. Sunlit mornings, rainy afternoons, windy days, familiar flight paths, vast skies, moments between life and death, encounters, conversations, dreams not yet formed.<\/p>\n

An ordinary life, yet only in losing it did I understand that its value could never be replaced.<\/p>\n

Memory does not fade with time as people often think. It distills itself. What is unimportant falls away. What remains becomes sharper, purer and therefore, more painful.<\/p>\n

And within me, there remains a resentment.<\/p>\n

But it is not a simple one. It is not directed toward ordinary people. I do not resent the American people I have met, lived among, and received kindness from. I understand that humanity everywhere shares both good and evil, wisdom and limitation.<\/p>\n

But I cannot help thinking of the grave misjudgments of governments and allies, of misguided anti-war movements, of deceptive media that shaped public perception… forces that altered the fate of smaller, vulnerable nations like my South Vietnam.<\/p>\n

War is not decided only on battlefields. It is decided within societies, through media, within politics.<\/p>\n

When one side loses the support of the world, loses the trust of its allies, then even with weapons, it cannot endure, let alone when those very weapons were ruthless taken away by those once called friends.<\/p>\n

My resentment is not to nurture hatred. It is to remember to remind myself, and future generations, so that what happened to my people will not be fading away or forgotten.<\/p>\n

And after all that remains not only pain, but a hope.<\/p>\n

A hope that one day I may return in freedom, in dignity. Not to rebuild again, but simply to look back. To walk old streets, even if they have been renamed. To hear familiar voices with our own language around once more. To see a homeland radiant again, a society rooted in humanity to truly take pride in being descendants of the Dragon and the Fairy.<\/p>\n

At this age, I fear little. I no longer fear loss, for I have lost too much. I no longer fear change, for I have lived through the greatest of changes. I fear only one thing, that I may not have enough time to witness that day. Not enough time to see a worthy ending for my homeland and to know that the suffering I have endured was not in vain.<\/p>\n

Waiting is never easy. It was easier when we were young. But now, as time grows short, each passing day carries unease not from desire, but from the fear of never having the chance.<\/p>\n

April returns.<\/p>\n

Still the gentle morning rains, the drifting clouds of long afternoons, the silences that defy naming\u2026 These are not observations of weather or for poetry. They are part of an inner life, a region of memory that opens within me each year at this time.<\/p>\n

April of resentment.
\nApril of pain.
\nYear after year, they return together.<\/em><\/p>\n

Yet if there were only resentment and pain, no one could endure more than a half of a century. For somewhere deep, small, but persistent, there remains something else.<\/p>\n

Hope.<\/p>\n

Hope that one day, whether I am still here or not, on that S-shaped country where my people will live in peace and dignity, without fear. That voices will not be silenced. That dreams will not be extinguished.<\/p>\n

And when that day comes, perhaps somewhere far away, those who have fallen will smile.<\/p>\n

Even if late, perhaps it will still be enough to ease the sorrow, and quiet the resentment
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